Forgiveness

Lately I've realized that not forgiving someone can really turn your life upside down. It starts with being upset or angry with them and not forgiving them or even refusing to forgive them. Then the next thing you know its potentially years later and your still holding a grudge. Your hurt and angry and you can't get past it and holding on to it hurts you more than it hurts them. Forgiveness, on the surface seems to be letting them go, letting them know that they're OK, but really you are setting yourself free from the pain and it won't be until you forgive that your wounds can heal. You will feel so much better when you just finally surrender your anger and hurt and just... forgive. It won't be easy and it may be something you have to work on for a long time but God can help with that if you ask for it.

"For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses." Matthew 6:14-15

Holding on to it and not forgiving can really damage you and your life more than you realize. What would happen if God had never forgiven us? What would happen if you never forgive someone. There are two amazing videos below this post that I posted about forgiveness and they are worth a watch! Just like what is said in the second video, you don't know if you will have tomorrow to forgive someone. What if you died before you had the chance to forgive them? Or the other way around... Forgive today before its too late and ask God for forgiveness too.

Videos a Friend shared

A while

Wow, it's been forever since I've updated this....

unfortunately forever will continue, at least until tomorrow. :P

SO, good night until then :)

Grandpa

My grandfather fell off a ladder yesterday while cleaning out the gutters. They flew him out to UMMC from our neighborhood in fear that he had a brain bleed because he takes blood thinners. His head is OK but he does have 8 broken ribs, 6 chipped vertebra, a partially collapsed lung and torn tendons in his neck which requires a risky surgery.

I don't know what to say other than I'm scared. I know God is in control but I can't help but to be scared. Very scared...

Poem

I sit in the darkness
my face is pale as can be,
I stare all around me,
but the darkness is all I see.

I'm blinded by the fear,
and i'm frozen in place,
I wish I could move,
but my heart begins to race.

I sink deeper in the corner,
I cry and scream for help,
the fear is taking me over,
I cry out, I scream, I yelp.

The fear is unbearable,
Father! I need You! Oi!
Please, Help me, I need You.
Please fill me with Your joy!

I'm in this pain for a reason,
You want me to be stronger,
I know You love me, O LORD,
the fear won't be here much longer.

I will get my strength from You,
Fill me with your love, LORD!
Cast the fear out, Father God.
Please, let me be restored!

I will stand up and move on,
With your strength, I will fight,
I will take a step in faith,
In this darkness, you are my Light.

Math is mean...

Today I decided to start doing a GED practice test online. Which you can do each subject separately, you basically pick and choose what you want to start with first and go from there. So, knowing that I am worst in math and need help in that area I decide to start there first and see how bad I really am at in math.

I do the first one, OK, fine, no big deal. Second question, eh, bit harder... third question, HUH?!, fourth question....lets just say I didn't actually answer that one cause I really didn't understand it. They do have a button so you can click it and check your answer and make sure you did it right or if you need help. So, I clicked it on the fourth question, they showed me the answer but they didn't show me HOW they got the answer, unless I was completely missing it all along.

Of course this reminds me of when I was in school and I would ask help with multiplication and what not and the teacher(s) would always say, "Sorry, we can't help you because you'll never learn if we do." I always got frustrated because in my mine I wanted help, not the answer, in their mind I was being lazy and that I was just seeking for an answer when I wasn't.

Why is it that everyone always thinks you're asking for the answer when you're really asking for help, basically what are the steps to get to the answer? I multiply this with this or what?!

Here is a perfect example, I had one of those math problems the other day where its something like 5x9-(9+2), of course I did what was in parentheses first and then did the rest and ended up with the wrong answer, probably 10, when the answer was really 34. I know, I know. I ask it too. HUH?!

Well, if you notice what I did before was added the 9 and 2 in parentheses which is 11, then I subtracted 9 which is 2 then multiplied 2 by 5 and got 10. What you are really supposed to do with these problems is do the parentheses first, which is the only thing I got right, then multiply then divide then add then subtract. So if you do it right the answer looks like this.

5 x 9 - (9 + 2)

5 x 9 - (11)

45 - (11)

34.

There you go. However, my book told me how to do this but the stuff online wasn't telling me the process, just the answers. SIGH.

I hate being frustrated, especially over MATH of all things.

Hello

Hi All!

I have had so many blogs and just deleted them. I'm not sure what exactly to post here to start off with but I think I will just start with a poem I wrote and go from there in later posts.
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She

She feels all alone,
As darkness befalls her,
She curls up in the corner,
And her emotions give a stir.

The darkness beckons,
And her screams ring,
The darkness is blinding,
The pain gives a sting.

The guilt is too much,
Her pain will not cease,
She cries out for help,
"I can give you peace"

There is a glimmer of hope,
She sees a bright and shining Light,
In the midst of her darkness,
She will be washed white.

Innocent blood was shed,
For the love God has for us,
He gave up His only Son,
For His name, we will confess.